Woah!~

It's been 2 month since my last post~ Well, I'm not that up to date to update my stuffs~ Because I'm just lazy, lol~ Nothing really special going on during the past 2 months, except for the Comic Fiesta at Times Square and Christmas at my grandmother's house~ :D

Well then, I'll just roughly talk about the Comic Fiesta I've been to~ I'm suppose to go there for 2 days, but somebody just changed his mind and say don't want, which leave me no choice but to stay back at home... He said that his parents don't allow, but man... If wanna tell a lie, put in more effort, not just bullshit in some other people's face... Fine then, I should've known...

I'm kinda regret I didn't go on Saturday, cause some of my friends went on Saturday... But then just Sunday is fine too... We arrived at KL around 10am, and got lost for a little bit~ xD but we manage to reach Times Square around 10.30am, and thank god we didn't took very long time to find the venue for Comic Fiesta~ =)

In there, there's too many cosplayers to see(and I recognize most of them!) and my(not mine) crappy camera, I missed out a lot of NICE cosplayers! T_T My mood for taking photos have been killed by the slow motion camera~ Oh well, inside the Mahathan Hall, they give away free gifts and stuffs, so I guess the 15 bucks entrance fee was worth it~ They throw free posters and even throw free nandroids(small figurines, which is VERY EXPENSIVE!), too bad those people in front never eat any rice, no energy to throw... lol~
(1 of my favorite) =D

Something that you can't avoid in life~

Pretty boring~ So I just come here and write a few meaningless sentences~ Sort like remind myself so, whatever...

I guess in life there's no way you can be alone, even though sometimes you feel that way but then you always have people around, it all up to you whether you wanna approach them or stay in the dark... If you decided to stay in the dark, it's ok~ As long as you don't think anything stupid or emo-ing(I hate this kind of people), well it's your choice, so don't complain nobody wants to be with you...

I'm not sure how to put it what's the feeling of going into the crowd and having fun together cause I always stay on the sideline and observe, probably just don't want any attention or trouble~ My partners are games and comics stuffs, the thing that usually 1 person will do, or should I say only 1 person can do~ Games sort like affected me greatly, since I have not much friends that like game, I mean hardcore gamer~ :/

I realised that life is like a game, depend on how you play it, how you interact with people~ What words will have what effect and stuffs, so this feeling cannot be felt by just playing games, is by making friends... After I entered MMU, then I only realise, that's slow of me, pity~ I'm still pretty anti-social cause I'm not good at finding a stuff to chat cause there's isn't many of my type~

Life can be unexpected, before you know it, you already became someone special in their life and the same thing can happen to you~ Someone already had a special place in your heart, please appreciate it when you had the time before it's too late~ :)

Well, The End~

Thanks Dad!

Yesterday my dad bought me a badminton racket, even though I broke it myself... It's kinda awkward to tell my dad that I'm thankful, I better treasure this badminton racket as I don't want it to broke into 2 again... And I've decided, since my racket is much more expensive than my dad's, I'm gonna buy 1 nice and a better racket for my dad when I got the money...

Blablabla~(Dunno what title for this)

Today I woke up early as normal human, and I realize I had nothing to do except play games... What else did I know besides than games, when I think of this, I'm feeling I'm the most useless person in the world... Even though I can be good in games, but then this brings no good for me, I always says study no good blablabla, but deep down inside I knew study was important, the problem is I couldn't see the future, maybe I'm too scared to see what's lies in front of me, so I keep denying myself... To keep me away from the things I want, but honestly, I don't even know what I want...

To set a target, I must have a goal to achieve... But then I can't think of anything I'm good at except games... For the pass 3 months, I've been sitting in the house rotting away... I'm already this old already but then I'm still doing nothing... Is there anything I can do? I always wanted to help, at least that won't make me feel helpless and useless, I want to do something that can make my life meaningful, but then, I've wasted so much time and yet I'm still a nobody...

I know no one can give me answer except myself, what I truly want... But when will this answer came to me or will I be able to find it, will it be too late? Will I regret? It's so hard to find my other self, I feel so incomplete within me...

I'm PISSED!!

1st of all, WHY IS IT ALWAYS SO HARD TO ANSWER 1 SIMPLE QUESTION!? YES OR NO!?

Ever since form 1 I've been organizing this irritating event which cost a lot of WORK, MONEY AND PATIENTS!!!!! To those who always say OK ON or NO I'M NOT COMING!! I THANK YOU FOR BEING SO STRAIGHT FORWARD!! Others that say : See 1st la, Dunno leh, Let me ask 1st... THESE PEOPLE I CAN JUST SCREW YOU!!

You don't even know what is the feeling of being neglected while you're busying inviting people into the party... People being nice to you, invite you into party without you doing anything or paying anything, why don't you just give a fast answer!? YES OR NO!?

From Form 1 until now, THOSE WHO SAY MAYBE ARE ALWAYS DOUBLE OR TRIPLE THE AMOUNT OF SAYING YES AND NO!! MIND YOU!! IS YES ANNNND NO!! NOT OR!!

Just a random post

Time sure fly fast, 1 of my friend is going to US already~ Well, Good luck to her. =)

For these past times I've wasted, I've been thinking a lot... What's a friend meant to me, a person who cares? a person who loves? or a person that doesn't brake a promise? No... I used to say that friends are merely tools for each other, well I don't think I'm wrong for that... Some people just use others to achieve their goal and they would watch the 1 that they used tremble or fall in life, these people are just pathetic...

For me, I have a new thinking about friends... I don't have close friends actually, maybe I wanna protect those friendship until I'm overdo something, that's why I don't have any... I wanna thank 1 guy who always hangs out with me and talk craps together~ I hope this could continue until the days of studying is over... lol~

For those who are kiashu and selfish~ Learn how to share and lose once for awhile, as people lose, they gain the experience~ Not just stick to 1 stuff that you are strong, people need to learn from all things, even things that you don't like or don't know... Someone said I'm selfish before, I don't know when did I do so... People have weakness as they're not perfect, and I'm 1 of them... Well, I try not to be those 2 I mentioned...

As time passes, I saw a change on someone I didn't see for a long time... A lot of things have changed, I can tell but then I didn't know what had changed... Maybe cause I never bother even looking at him, reminds me of bad things... If someone really treasure friendship, I think they'll try everything to get that back, but then I don't see that effort for me~ I'm just another person in the crowd... Something that is lost will never be found again...

Well then, that concludes the post~

~_~ sigh~

well, well~ someone is definately reading what i wrote~ that was unexpected~ alright then, 1st thing 1st... I never heard anyone that says anything about going to cyber looking for house, if wanna go look for 1, should look it together, not go there without never saying anything~ and when I noticed, already found 1 and only for 6 persons~ ok that's fine with me, after all I'm the 1 who always didn't study and bother people... so I understand if you guys don't wanna live together, but tell me 1st... and unfortunately, no one does...

And I dunno since when I got some crashing with other people, just straight tell me at face, not poking me from behind... If you're not happy with something, just tell, so hard to open your mouth? got gold inside scare people to steal? I am not the type of guy who always study until half dead, I rather do things my own way, maybe in future I might fail, but this is my own choice, so don't bother, I won't regret~

Think before you say or do anything, someone says he/she is fine with anything, but I came across a lot of people who say that but do not actually fine with "anything"... That ticked me off a little, so now... About the previous post, is not that I'm angry that you guys finding a house without telling me, is I'm pretty shocked that I got left behind... again... I'm just mad that no one even told me about this, and say I do nothing about it...

This is my own things to say, anything to comment, please do so...

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Well... It's been awhile I wrote something here, I just found out that I'm going to have to leave my hometown to further my studies... and I doesn't want to stay at the hostel cause my dad told me I'm gonna take bus to Cyber instead of driving there, I'm gonna go crazy if I can't drive...

This is not the main issue, the thing is I thought I was suppose to stay there with a group of people... But~ I was left untold until they posted the photos in fb entitled "our future home", in my mind I was like what the heck? You all went there without telling me and now I was kicked out... Whatever, but I'm running out of time to look for the house... and since I'm alone I guess I'll have to fit myself into a new enviroment again, just like I went to NS... I just hope I can find a house there...

This is a word for myself : Humans always think themselves before they can think others... and to sum that up, that is called "Selfish"... Counter my statement if you can, HUMAN...

Random post~

Well... I don't wanna mention the name, but is pretty obvious that someone is against me... Although not that serious compare to last time, but now I'm pretty SURE 100% that "someone" is against me...

1st of all, since when did I pissed you off? Did I done something unforgivable? If you say is the 1 power point thing I didn't do for HD, then I shall remind you that you did the same thing too~ Usually I won't look at other people face or attitude, but yours I have to say, I observe quite many times and I will say something unplease to your ears...

Ever since I was little, I'm observing everyone, even now in MMU~ Sorry but I have to say, that someone has the worst attitude of all~

It's been a long time~

Well, I guess again... I'm slacking off writing on my blog again~ lol~ but the fact is nothing really special happen, so I guess I'll just let it pass...

Actually I don't know what to write now, but I just feel like writing something here, mostly is just crap though... Now I realised that I can't cope with my studies already, I think I really need to start to work hard, but how?

I can't get myself into study mood, I just wanna rest, for a long long time... Ah, I hate myself now... ~.~

Watching Anime again~

Bought new anime on saturday, Ranma 1/2... It's not new actually, it's just that it's new to my collection, my brother bought it though... But who cares, lol~

This anime is about a boy who got cursed when he fell into a spring, his curse was when he touched cold water, he'll become a girl while hot water will make him become a guy~ It's a funny anime~ :D

Hmmm~

Since he had delete me from his blog list, so I think I can write something without letting him know... lalala~

I admit I didn't do the power point, but that's because I've no idea about that damn thing... Didn't inform or tell me what to do and yet you complain I didn't do my work!? Okay, 1st of all, I would like to thank you for doing that power point and putting my name even though I didn't do anything...

Well, at least I said thank you and sorry for not doing anything... Unlike you, last minute call me do bullshits and yet you didn't say a single word or grateful that I can do that shit for the last minute...(okay, not only you, it's the whole group)

I don't know when I pissed you off but I can sense that quite obvious, try to hide your shit face and don't let me burst if possible... Zzz... I don't know if I can wait or tolerate that much if I've reached my limits...

Summary for CNY holidays~

Well, I guess this will be a long long post~ Don't bother to read if you're lazy to read long long stuffs like this~ haha~ Alright, here goes...

New Year Eve : This day was on saturday, so as usual my relatives will come to my house for Reunion Dinner, 1 of my uncle can't make it this year so it's kinda felt like something went missing~ Before the Reunion Dinner, as usual, me and my cousins played some games (PC & PS)... After the dinner, we gather around and have a illegal gambling(Mahjong)~ Although most of us are winning, we have a victim that is a ALL TIME LOSER, hahahaha~ Never win 1 round before, and he's wearing RED!! LOL~ My aunties gave me angpau which total up to RMXX.XX(secret)... :P Didn't really slept this day~

New Year 1st Day : Today is a Big Day, of course I wear my new red shirt I bought at JJ... The 1st thing I did was greet my parents Happy New Year, and my mom gave me my angpau~ The amount was ridiculously ALOT compare with all the previous years(probably giving me the money I used on my Guitar)... Sad thing about the TV program is nothing really special, just some boring shows, don't have any program about the Arts of Chinese~ kanasai~ Around 1pm, I went to my grandma's house, as expected, a lot of people were already there having Reunion "Lunch"~ haha~ This year too, my grandma gave me a lot of money!~ Thanks Grandma! :D Again didn't slept much today, cause play too much~ haha~

New Year 2nd Day : Today is the day where I starting to get bored like always, lol~ Luckily my mood to play games have came back(thanks to Bryan), so I decide to play that game like mad since this is a Golden Opportunity for me to finish this game before school reopens~ I did visit some houses that day but nothing really special~ Just go their house and get angpau, eat eat eat drink drink drink~ and I found out that my cousins ate 8 EGGS per day to grow fatter!! Ok, that's just insane for me cause my mom will blab non stop if I eat more than 2 eggs per day~ But my cousin did looked a bit fatter already compare to last time I saw him~ lol... Maybe I should try this too, IF my mom allows that is... ~.~ again, didn't slept much~

New Year 3rd Day : This day I was suppose to go out with my family to visit some of my relatives house, but I feel like lazy to wake up(cause of massive playing) and the weather is killing me, SO DAMN HOT!! And I hate the heat that trapped inside a car for 1~2 hours!~ So 2 things bothering me, I decide to stay at home (I got a lot of money already xD)... So while they're gone, I woke up and went straight for my PS2, and played Valkyrie Profile 2 : Silmeria~ I played until 2 30pm, and went back to my bed again~ I spent most of my time sleeping today, recharging the time I didn't slept well for 3 days before~ lol... But I still get up on midnight to play my games~ That's the only time I feel energetic~ xP

New Year 4th Day : Well, I didn't do anything besides playing games today~ So I guess I should skip this part and proceed with the 5th day~ lol

New Year 5th Day : Today I'm only planning to play games again, but my brother's friends were coming so I can't play all day... and Kenny mentioned that he's coming and more people will come in the mean time, so I decide to save my energy to hang out with my friends~ But in the end, only Kenny and Chean Wen showed up, and we talked about games and anime ALOT(like we usually did)~ My bro's friends also came to my house and they wanted to play KOF, for me, It's SHOWTIME! HAHAHA!~ I didn't even used 50% of my full power and I already beaten up them badly~ xD How cruel of me~ After my bro's friend went home, I played DON with Kenny and Chean Wen... Surprisingly, Chean Wen can beat me in DON~ LOL

New Year 6th Day : Today it's Ivan's birthday, and Kenny told me to hang out with him~ Accompany him and his girlfriend to watch movie, I wanted to watch True Legend but he already watched, so me, Kenny and Branson decide not to be the "Spotlight" and we went for True Legend while Ivan and Sharon went for 14 Blades~ After the Movies, Kenny went home(his Kancil is SCARY!)~ The rest of us went for the New JJ again since we have nothing to do~ haha~ Branson, I will never forget the Drink that COSTED 11.50!! WAAAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!

New Year 7th Day : Ok, This is gonna be the longest of all days~ xD I woke up at 7am today, cause we're going to gather at the Petronas at 9am... So I guess I woke up too early, then I went to play my PS2 for awhile~ At 8am I took my sweet time doing all the business in the bathroom, after I'm done it's 8 30am already, I went to fetch Kenny and Justin and they were complaining I was too early~ I was thinking : 9am gather fetch you at 8 30am, early meh? But yeah, it was too early to arrive there, it was only 8 45am when I reached the petrol station... At 9am sharp, only Ah Meow was there, no one else~ =.= Luckily they showed up at 9 10am, if not I'm going ahead without waiting them~ 1st stop, Pam's house... We been through a lot of trouble for my Kancil to reach here, the slopes along the road is killing my car!~ T_T As usual, Pam's mom prepared a lot of stuffs for us, she took us all to a small house which sells noodles, kuey teow, mee hun and lou xu fun~ Choo Liang joked that he wanted 4 mixed together, of course the seller will not agree to do that... lol~ The noodles is nice, too bad I'm too hungry to enjoy it~ Send my regards and thanks to your mom, Pam...

2nd Stop: Justin's house~ The only house that didn't gave any Angpau~ haha~ But still thanks for inviting us to have a look in your house, and don't say your house is small, appreciate it~ lol~ I ate a lot of chinese love letters, any house that have that stuffs will surely go into my stomach, no doubts~ haha~

3rd Stop : Grace's house~ Finally, you let us go to your house~ haha~ you said you'd let us dismantle your Piano but the cost of dismantle is 20k, forget it~ lol... Seems like you didn't practice for a long time but still it's better than anyone of us that went out for that trip on that day~ hahaha~ thanks for the invitation :D I can't wait to see the performance of yours IF I can go~ lol june right?

4th Stop : Choo Liang's house~ I think we did nothing much here, just come to your house and watch TV program, what was is called again? Forgotten already, haha~ Although it's kind of embarrassing, cause we just go and take angpau then leave~ ><>< I didn't really talked much cause I'm not too close to teacher so I just wanna say thank you~ :D

ARGH! I ALMOST GET大四喜(already have west north south and 2 east waiting to win)when I was playing Mahjong at Miss Kristil's house!! T_T why you all(Kenny,Yan Yi,Cindy) didn't let me syok for winning leh!!??

I guess this is the end of my summary~ Actually there's more, but it's too long to continue~ P/S: I 3 30 am baru reach home(already the next day)~ :P

Finally~

Ah~ Today I've found a place where I can learn guitar~ It's RM75 per month, and one of my friend already can read notes for learning it 3 months... So I guess I can learn it much more faster, I hope I can... Well, I missed my secondary friends, long time no see~ Hope I can see you guys in Chinese New Year~ :D

Pain!!

Ouch ouch ouch~ Today I just spent RM825 on my new Guitar, it's pure electric, so it's kinda expensive(but it's with amp). The price of this guitar is quite cheap actually(for musician only, NOT ME), cause Bryan said it's quite cheap compare to Johor...

I don't know how to see what guitar made what sound but luckily I'm with someone who has experience with these kind of things, I wanna go into the music world as soon as I can, means I wanna master this instrument as fast as I could, if my fingers allows me to do that(poor fingers will have to suffer D: )

Well, wish me luck!~ xD

What's the point of promise if you don't keep it...

As expected, my parents don't agree to buy me a guitar... Although they say I can play whatever instrument I want, but in the end I have to use my own money... I'm interested in music since I'm a kid, but they just won't let me learn cause they're afraid of me to quit half way, and their money will go wasted...

And now, they give me an excuse "because that's your own interest, pay yourself"... I really got nothing to say, last time they said they would buy if I want... That time I was not interested in guitar, when I'm interested they broke their promise... Want to scold cannot, want to keep I'm not comfortable... So write in Blog, senang...

Been slacking off writing on blog~

I'm just not in the mood to write cause nothing really special or memorable happens, so yeah, I won't write things that I don't wanna remember~ Lately I've hooked up on drawings, I know it doesn't look nice but I'll try work on it~ Practice makes perfect right? =0 (I still doubt it)

I'm looking for a guitar too, cause it seems fun and the cheapest instrument I can get(that's the main point), I can't afford a piano cause my parents said that is too expensive, so I decide to buy a guitar... I've been wanting to learn any instrument but I just don't have that chance, hope I can get a guitar...

Holidays, why do you have to end so early? CNY mode already, not in the mood to go to school!! (By the way, I dunno what picture to upload so I upload one of my drawings)

My 1st Computer Drawing Using Paint! :D

Although I'm just copying from somebodies drawing but I'm satisfied that I can do the same too.. :D I'm suppose to study but I really don't have that mood to do that... My drawing is not that good, please comment.. xD

Random post~

I spent most of the time sleeping today, this cloudnine really wears me down... My eyes like panda because of not enough sleep, everyday stay up to play that stupid party match... Last Friday go watch Ju-On with Bryan and Branson, SYOK!!

This movie really gives me the creep, because we're sitting on the 3rd row, and you can imagine that place to watch ghost movies. I bet that people who are weak-hearted already fainted, lol~ Well, I'm looking forward for the next movie, I'll call you when I'm free to go anywhere~ haha~ Chao~ Bra_ther~

Preparation for the Final!~

Well.. I guess I didn't update my blog for some time... lol~ was not in the mood anyways, and I have Final Exam to face~~ Damn, people are just having fun and we're suffering in Foundation course~ lol...

Anyways, we can go to our Beta year much faster compared with the Form 6~ They still have to study for 1 more year and sit for STPM at the end of 2010~ I guess I'll stop playing games for these 2 weeks, to complete my assignments and studies... :)

........

Why I still have to do work after I've done so much? And why I do work is a "MUST" and others just see me "DO"?

After I've done it, no one even thanked me for the last minute call and last minute trouble... Is it my duty to do that? Not Divided? What the heck that suppose to mean!? I'm SICK of this... The marks are in groups, and only 1 did most of the job while others just wait for that person to complete it...

And some people don't know the fun of playing games, just wanna get high lvl and get more fames... I regret that I created a Guild in that game... Even though I've met my old friends, but that's not the thing I wanted...