Blablabla~(Dunno what title for this)

Today I woke up early as normal human, and I realize I had nothing to do except play games... What else did I know besides than games, when I think of this, I'm feeling I'm the most useless person in the world... Even though I can be good in games, but then this brings no good for me, I always says study no good blablabla, but deep down inside I knew study was important, the problem is I couldn't see the future, maybe I'm too scared to see what's lies in front of me, so I keep denying myself... To keep me away from the things I want, but honestly, I don't even know what I want...

To set a target, I must have a goal to achieve... But then I can't think of anything I'm good at except games... For the pass 3 months, I've been sitting in the house rotting away... I'm already this old already but then I'm still doing nothing... Is there anything I can do? I always wanted to help, at least that won't make me feel helpless and useless, I want to do something that can make my life meaningful, but then, I've wasted so much time and yet I'm still a nobody...

I know no one can give me answer except myself, what I truly want... But when will this answer came to me or will I be able to find it, will it be too late? Will I regret? It's so hard to find my other self, I feel so incomplete within me...

I'm PISSED!!

1st of all, WHY IS IT ALWAYS SO HARD TO ANSWER 1 SIMPLE QUESTION!? YES OR NO!?

Ever since form 1 I've been organizing this irritating event which cost a lot of WORK, MONEY AND PATIENTS!!!!! To those who always say OK ON or NO I'M NOT COMING!! I THANK YOU FOR BEING SO STRAIGHT FORWARD!! Others that say : See 1st la, Dunno leh, Let me ask 1st... THESE PEOPLE I CAN JUST SCREW YOU!!

You don't even know what is the feeling of being neglected while you're busying inviting people into the party... People being nice to you, invite you into party without you doing anything or paying anything, why don't you just give a fast answer!? YES OR NO!?

From Form 1 until now, THOSE WHO SAY MAYBE ARE ALWAYS DOUBLE OR TRIPLE THE AMOUNT OF SAYING YES AND NO!! MIND YOU!! IS YES ANNNND NO!! NOT OR!!

Just a random post

Time sure fly fast, 1 of my friend is going to US already~ Well, Good luck to her. =)

For these past times I've wasted, I've been thinking a lot... What's a friend meant to me, a person who cares? a person who loves? or a person that doesn't brake a promise? No... I used to say that friends are merely tools for each other, well I don't think I'm wrong for that... Some people just use others to achieve their goal and they would watch the 1 that they used tremble or fall in life, these people are just pathetic...

For me, I have a new thinking about friends... I don't have close friends actually, maybe I wanna protect those friendship until I'm overdo something, that's why I don't have any... I wanna thank 1 guy who always hangs out with me and talk craps together~ I hope this could continue until the days of studying is over... lol~

For those who are kiashu and selfish~ Learn how to share and lose once for awhile, as people lose, they gain the experience~ Not just stick to 1 stuff that you are strong, people need to learn from all things, even things that you don't like or don't know... Someone said I'm selfish before, I don't know when did I do so... People have weakness as they're not perfect, and I'm 1 of them... Well, I try not to be those 2 I mentioned...

As time passes, I saw a change on someone I didn't see for a long time... A lot of things have changed, I can tell but then I didn't know what had changed... Maybe cause I never bother even looking at him, reminds me of bad things... If someone really treasure friendship, I think they'll try everything to get that back, but then I don't see that effort for me~ I'm just another person in the crowd... Something that is lost will never be found again...

Well then, that concludes the post~