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I'm really tired today... My heart feels uneasy, feel like crying, but no tears... I'm not a good person, a low-life, good at nothing creature... I failed as a child, as I always quarrel with my parents... I failed as a brother, for not teaching my brother and sister... I failed as a catholic, as I always forgot to pray and didn't go to mass on every Sunday... I failed as a friend, cause I always ended up screwing something up... I've failed everything in my life, I've done nothing good before... I never make my parents proud before...

And I almost screwed up my relationship with 1 of my friends, she's older than me... So I call her "jie" in chinese... I really am a failure, why God created me to suffer in this world? I wish I were never born, the wish that will never come true even after I've died...