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What am I suppose to do now? I feel tired for everything, I don't even have the mood the play games anymore... Day after day, my hair is getting lesser and lesser... I don't know why but my hair has begun to drop, I'll never have my hairstyle before march of 2009 again...

My relatives asked whether I'm too stress in study, I said yea but that's not the real problem... I'm trying to figure out what's gotten into me lately, really have no mood to do anything... Everyday wasting time, do nothing, people ignore me, but this already happen when I was little... Last time I hoped this will not happen again, but it happen right now...

What am I suppose to do?...

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I'm really tired today... My heart feels uneasy, feel like crying, but no tears... I'm not a good person, a low-life, good at nothing creature... I failed as a child, as I always quarrel with my parents... I failed as a brother, for not teaching my brother and sister... I failed as a catholic, as I always forgot to pray and didn't go to mass on every Sunday... I failed as a friend, cause I always ended up screwing something up... I've failed everything in my life, I've done nothing good before... I never make my parents proud before...

And I almost screwed up my relationship with 1 of my friends, she's older than me... So I call her "jie" in chinese... I really am a failure, why God created me to suffer in this world? I wish I were never born, the wish that will never come true even after I've died...

I'm Tired~

I'm really sick of everything, why there's nothing else to do besides study, study and study? Maybe I wasn't even be honest to myself, I've been forcing myself to do something I don't want... I just wanted to take off the mask and be myself~

But what I desired for? Games? Career? Family? Attention? Friends? I really don't know what I'm searching for... I know something, that is I'm not honest to myself...

Jasmine's birthday party~

Yesterday was quite tiring, cause I never even sleep much yesterday... Jasmine's party starts at 7 30 pm, but I already got ready at 7 pm... So I decided to fetch Bryan 1st, so after I fetched Bryan, I went to Tan 41's house to fetch him... But we called him 2 times and he still haven't reply, so I guessed that's no use to wait there, so I decided to abandon him... >_<

When we reached jasmine's house, its about 7 35 pm, and the party doesn't seemed like already started, so as I thought, her house is pretty big... O.O Its about my house x 2 (that's very big!! lol) So we hang out at her house, she invited pretty many people, but most of them I don't know who they were, but I did saw 1 person I did not want to see... After we ate, Jasmine brought us upstairs and ask us to sing K... I'm not really that good at singing, so I'll pass... :P

After that, we went out to watch movie... It was already 2 am when the movie finished, and they didn't arrange sit whose car, so ended up I have to go 2 rounds also... I nearly crash on to a timbered tree in the middle of the road, because the weather is bad, and I was driving pretty fast(60km/h, considered fast in rainy days)... I heard that my friend's car is even worse, luckily they were able to return home safely...

Persona 4

I was wondering when was the last time I logged in and write something here... lol... Cause I have nothing special to talk about~~ lame~~ haha~~

Since I have nothing to write again, so I'll just write something about games again... haha~~ This time, the game I was playing is Persona 4... It's quite similar to what I've played in Persona 3 (still haven't finish yet ._.), and they got alot of improvement in graphics and systems... And it's alot tougher to play this game... XD

So, again... For those who have PS2, I suggest you to play this game... For those who doesn't have 1... May God Pity You and Will Grant You 1 PS2... :P