苦し

Please grant me strength to continue, I cannot do anything without moral support... I already lose interest in what I used to do, I can't kill off my mood with playing games anymore, I feel tired most of the time even though I slept early at night... I have my own feelings, but what did I do to make me deserve these unwanted feelings? It's a miracle for me to endure until now, if my source were being cut, I don't think I can take it. Why am I being so down..? Am I that bad? Am I a person that hard to trust? Why always hurt me mentally and not physically? I'm not perfect but I'll try to do my best to keep up, is it wrong? My brain always thinking of something that can avoid all these, but I choose to hurt myself rather than other people. It's hard when you don't know what's going on around you, I'm being in the dark, with 1 hope... I do not know when I reach that hope, what's around me are still the same.. I feel isolated with other people, maybe because my interest is different, I can't fit into others I suppose. I'm sorry for being me, I have to say sorry to everyone including myself.. I'm sorry.