苦し

Please grant me strength to continue, I cannot do anything without moral support... I already lose interest in what I used to do, I can't kill off my mood with playing games anymore, I feel tired most of the time even though I slept early at night... I have my own feelings, but what did I do to make me deserve these unwanted feelings? It's a miracle for me to endure until now, if my source were being cut, I don't think I can take it. Why am I being so down..? Am I that bad? Am I a person that hard to trust? Why always hurt me mentally and not physically? I'm not perfect but I'll try to do my best to keep up, is it wrong? My brain always thinking of something that can avoid all these, but I choose to hurt myself rather than other people. It's hard when you don't know what's going on around you, I'm being in the dark, with 1 hope... I do not know when I reach that hope, what's around me are still the same.. I feel isolated with other people, maybe because my interest is different, I can't fit into others I suppose. I'm sorry for being me, I have to say sorry to everyone including myself.. I'm sorry.

New Start!

Well, it's finally here... I'm gonna finish my course and get myself a diploma, and then a degree~ Just a beginning of my life, I sure hope I can concentrate and not play a fool anymore... It'll be sometime after I wrote another stuff here...

Here's a summary of my recent activities~ I went to my grandma's house and spent most of my time helping around and babysitting kids, it's not like I like it but it can't be helped when you're the eldest :/

And then I went to Genting Highlands, to relax~ Unfortunately, I still have to babysit 2 little kids and a teenager, the problem is more on the kid's side, their crying will drive people nuts, no kidding. Won a little bit of money, just to cover back the cost. Technically I'm just helping my grandma to win back her money she had lost. lol. Besides, I don't gamble~

Finally, there's today, long waited day. Comic Fiesta 2011, which is the 10th anniversary for the event, Malaysia's biggest ACG(anime, comic, games) event. The event is held for 2 days, and each day have more than 10 thousand visitors~ It's impressive all right, too bad I'm alone. It's kinda depressing y'know, over 10 thousand people and I'm standing there alone. Taking pictures and stuff, lol.

Guess I'll say goodbye to online stuffs for awhile.